In the attempt to more fully realize the infinite nature of things, there comes a point where one loses all sense of separation from the outside world. This is good! To be able to see things this way is enviable and can be refreshing, meditative, and aligning. However, in relationships with other people especially, it is important to remember that one must set up some boundaries between the self and the other person. Otherwise, there will be no ability to separate between the other’s ills and your own, and that can divert you from whatever is your intended path.

How can I be more like myself?

It seems to me that there is always a gap between what kind of person that I think I should be and how I acctually act. While it is essentially human to have ideas of what kind of person one should be (second order volition) I always feel as if I am not doing enough to become the person I really want to be. Whenever I do take steps in the “right” direction I find myself happier, more motivated, and more at peace with myself. When I do not I feel stressed and shitty like I am wasting my life and that I will amount to nothing.

While I am ofttimes content with the person that I am I always have this lingering feeling that I am weak willed and do not try enough to pursue what I am interested in being. I find this hard to accept as part of my vision of myself does not include being a weak willed person. This is where my problem lies. How can a person with strong ambitions be weak willed and still accomplish all that they want to? I don’t think they can.

Perhaps this is a sign to step back, re-evaluate and then set off again.

The journey is hard. But it is in the journey that we find strength to travel.

Materialism and consumerism lead to depression.
This depression is caused by the replacement of contentment with desire.
One must be totally unattatched, limited not only to his or her possessions.
Once you really let go of everything you can describe as yourself having, then you will be free from desire and content.

Nike dunks are sick.

Where does one draw the line? Raise your hand if you read Siddhartha…
My earlobes are stretched almost all the way to the ground.

All of existence is non-simultaneously apprehended interacting processing.

All of existence is infinite regression.

All of existence is.

Infinity.

Therefore…
All of non-existence is not? Or is it?

Is it possible to talk about another person without talking about yourself?

I can imagine others’ feelings at times. I can imagine why they act the way they do. I can make judgements on people’s characters, and I can imagine that I know how they can right themselves. But I cannot enter their body and soul and actually know what’s behind the action that I see from my own perspective. In and instant, I make assumptions about the causality of others’ actions that in reality trace back to the moment they were born.
All I know is myself. It’s all I’ve ever known. In fact, it’s all I’ve ever had access to. I can make educated gusses on the causality of things in other people’s lives, but it’s always going to be short sighted. I’m not a business man, so if I see a guy in business lose money on an investment, can I really make any judegment at all on him as a business man? If I judge him and say that he’s a bad business man, aren’t I really saying that if I were in the same position and makes the same mistake that I would judge myself as a bad business man? That same failure can end up making him all the better, or he could have falied on purpose for all I know.
Talking with certain about anyone but myself is certainly the same as talking about myself. It’s unavoidable.
When I say that the world would be a better place if everyone smiled more, exercized more, had an artistic outlet, and led a spiritual lifestlye, I’m really just saying what would make me happier. Judgeing others is only a way to avoid listening and reacting to myself, the only thing I can ever be sure of.