i walk in the shower of love in the summer time, in the winter i walk in water puddles. In the slush too, but sometimes i get into bigger things. like meditation, and my inner voice tells me to write, then the alarm rings.

Don’t expect anything. It’s not worth it. I know when I try to expect something, I’m wrong every time. I’m not talking about whether or not the newspaper will be on my step every morning. I mean emotions. You try and guess how you’ll feel, and you will fall flat on your face. I spent the last 3 days dreading this moment, avoiding this moment, delaying this moment. But you know what? The moment came and went, and I was dead wrong in my predictions.
I’m talking about my love life of course. I thought letting go my love, my beauty, my crutch would destroy me. But it has only made me stronger. I feel more like myself again. I feel like she is more like herself again. I don’t regret any of it, I loved it, I learned from it. We just couldn’t keep it anymore.
I just took a walk and my campus was different than it was a couple of hours ago. It’s calling me and having a conversation with me concerning our potential. I was shut out from this conversation before because I was never alone. My girl was always there in spirit to co-decide.
Just don’t be afraid to take steps and change your life. If you believe in a change and stick to it, you can actually change your day to day life in any way you want. Single life will bring on its own set of problems, but atleast they’ll be my own problems and not problems that not only bring me down but bring a person I love down as well.