How am I not like myself?
How can I be more like myself?
It seems to me that there is always a gap between what kind of person that I think I should be and how I acctually act. While it is essentially human to have ideas of what kind of person one should be (second order volition) I always feel as if I am not doing enough to become the person I really want to be. Whenever I do take steps in the “right” direction I find myself happier, more motivated, and more at peace with myself. When I do not I feel stressed and shitty like I am wasting my life and that I will amount to nothing.
While I am ofttimes content with the person that I am I always have this lingering feeling that I am weak willed and do not try enough to pursue what I am interested in being. I find this hard to accept as part of my vision of myself does not include being a weak willed person. This is where my problem lies. How can a person with strong ambitions be weak willed and still accomplish all that they want to? I don’t think they can.
Perhaps this is a sign to step back, re-evaluate and then set off again.
The journey is hard. But it is in the journey that we find strength to travel.
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you just gotta love the questions and remember to be patient. You have to remember that it is the ideal thought of yourself that moves your forward in life, and while sometimes you may feel very off track, later on you usually see those times as beneficial in the overall scheme of things.
I love when someone else posts exactly what I’m thinking about without talking about it prior. I’m going through some shit right now.
Comment by ∞Limbs — On 02-08-06 at 2:00 pm
Not speaking specifically, maybe becoming the person that you, or collectively, we, envision ourselves as being is like striving for an ideal that can be approached, and very nearly approximated, but never really reached. Yet while striving in that direction, we feel a sense of peace, contentment, happiness, (as you alluded to in your post) in our coming closer to that deal. The fun, exciting, amazing thing about life is that we can control our ideal conception of ourselves, and make it whatever we choose. We just need to know we can always go get it, whatever it may. Like 50….
get rich or die tryin bitches
Comment by bas2110 — On 02-08-06 at 9:43 pm
fuck yeah BAS. I feel that.
Comment by ∞Limbs — On 02-09-06 at 12:10 am
Seen the movie I Heart Huckabees lately?
Comment by Brad Stand — On 02-13-06 at 9:20 pm