BlackLight Power

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Disprove quantum theory? Why not?

Check out the video on the site, and then realize that he’s coming out with this in a couple of months.

I’ve been noticing lately how much I depend on the structure of society for happiness. I’ve established that I’m happier when I’m busy creating/modifying/updating myself and the universe around me all day every day, but when I am alone and without obligation I do nothing to keep myself busy. I feed off the already established structure of different organizations in order to structure my own life. So far I have not been successful at using my mind to create the desired structure that organizations can give me.
I am capable of structuring my own life, but so far I lack the motivation. I do not however lack the motivation to go out and assign someone else the responsibility of telling me what to do.
Why am I my own worst enemy?
Why is it that I can so readily deduce all of these things about my life, but I fight against the obvious solutions. The obvious solution is to just do all the things I know I should be doing and then I should just do all of them and shut up about it. Why then is this solution daunting? When will I man up and take responsibility for myself and my actions? But then again I have to remind myself that a dependence on society isn’t the worst thing in the world. Successful men and women are successful because they did great things working with society, not avoiding it. So maybe my dependence on society isn’t all bad, but I think that my inability to internally guide my life is bad in some respects.
Again, where is the medium? Where is my balance going to found? When will I be able to ween myself from the Honest Book of Truth, and answer these questions myself instead of writing them down?

We as humans play games.

When we are bored we create these pockets of purpose in our lives to use our minds with.

What do games say about humans?

Are the games we play just meaningless time fillers or do they say something more about the human condition.

Games require us to think about something within a confined space. We assign rules to certain interactions so that they can have forced consequences. Sometimes the consequences are not what we thought they would be.

In games we find these unanswered questions.

We play.

With each new game we discover something new, about the game, about ourselves as players.

What would happen if….

Becomes the question and we have the ability to play out possibilities to run our thought process to a conclusion and then once the sum of all the thought that has gone into a game is completed the game is destroyed. You pick up the pieces and you play again. You have to get better somehow.

How is it that I’ve reimprinted myself to skim over the intended meaning of a statement and see right through to its potential?

I no longer take anything at face value, I’m always digging for a deeper meaning; I want to break functional fixedness and exploit new ways of using old tools.

Ideally this is a gift worth using, but mostly it just gets me into trouble. When someone tells me a law, I test every case for potential to work around the law.

For once I want to be sucked in and go with the flow. I don’t want to feel like I’m on the outside looking in; I want to glide through the middle of the stream.

Tomorrow I’ll write a post about the dangers of getting sucked it, but for now I just want to feel the power of society; I want to feel the camaraderie of equally ignorant swimmers.

So how’m I doing?

Isn’t it funny how we can be so utterly unaware of ourselves. We think we’re taking steps forward, when we’re really moving backwards. I convinced myself that I have complete control over the way I see the world and that in turn would lead to the world transforming into the world that I imagined. But today I question that theory and think that the world constructed is but an illusion. I want to combine the world as I see it with how the world sees me. It’s not superficial, it’s me wanting to be honest.