Still searching.
I’ve been noticing lately how much I depend on the structure of society for happiness. I’ve established that I’m happier when I’m busy creating/modifying/updating myself and the universe around me all day every day, but when I am alone and without obligation I do nothing to keep myself busy. I feed off the already established structure of different organizations in order to structure my own life. So far I have not been successful at using my mind to create the desired structure that organizations can give me.
I am capable of structuring my own life, but so far I lack the motivation. I do not however lack the motivation to go out and assign someone else the responsibility of telling me what to do.
Why am I my own worst enemy?
Why is it that I can so readily deduce all of these things about my life, but I fight against the obvious solutions. The obvious solution is to just do all the things I know I should be doing and then I should just do all of them and shut up about it. Why then is this solution daunting? When will I man up and take responsibility for myself and my actions? But then again I have to remind myself that a dependence on society isn’t the worst thing in the world. Successful men and women are successful because they did great things working with society, not avoiding it. So maybe my dependence on society isn’t all bad, but I think that my inability to internally guide my life is bad in some respects.
Again, where is the medium? Where is my balance going to found? When will I be able to ween myself from the Honest Book of Truth, and answer these questions myself instead of writing them down?
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Comment by Gesoi — On 11-14-05 at 6:35 pm
You’re a victim of mental masterbation
Comment by Admin — On 11-14-05 at 6:53 pm
Balance is a tricky thing, the trickiest perhaps. In the end we all want to have personal power over ourselves, however this cannot happen entirely without us first dealing with how we are effected by socitey’s outside infulence. Realizing that the infulence is there is the first positive step, if you find out what the second is give me a ring.
Comment by The One that has Been — On 11-14-05 at 7:11 pm
ring a ding ding
Comment by snoop godd — On 11-15-05 at 4:47 am
personally i think you begin to move ahead when you make the rare leap that you are a part of it all, and it is all a part of you. we fool ourselves thinking we are ever seperate from all things,
Comment by reverend gisher — On 11-16-05 at 9:07 pm
Just as you’re indicating, I, too, have learned over the years, if nothing else, that society is not a structure that may be abandoned due to its not being merely a formal social order blatantly imposed on free will; society is a construct with evolutionary roots, there can be no escape because escape equals extinction. The first step to social revolution is admitting to the inevitability of the framework; the second is understanding the framework and its mechanisms; the third is the reshaping of its malleable contents. Your thoughts and visions are your tools – but be aware that language limits you.
Never fool yourself into thinking you’re part of a plot to destroy the “matrix.” The world ‘outside’ would look just like that on the inside; there would be a fixed agenda, a given society, means of control. That is why radical political movements serve only to cause a violent shift to an end of, never a break from, the defining spectrum. Your advantage is your position inside the construct. Awareness is everything; at the very least, it prevents loss of control. You’ve come this far, so answer your own question. Don’t wait for that phone to ring.
Comment by neon fox tongue — On 11-17-05 at 1:42 am
there is no world outside. there is only the perception of the world outside, which is inside.
Comment by greg — On 11-18-05 at 3:04 pm
Stately, Plump:
You abandoned our discussion about Brilliant ideas. That’s ok if you want to, but I did respond at great length to your last post.
In response to this post, to begin with I’m not sure where you’d go to really be alone. I mean, everywhere you go today, even to your bedroom at night, is some construct of society. Maybe if you could go out in the woods or to a desert island and really be alone, then I am sure you would start to put your life together in a different way than it is now structured. Some people have tried this already. I guess Thoreau is one of the most famous. If you could go away and be alone, however, you might find that you want society, or you need society. Being alone may not be all that it is cracked up to be, unless you have some kind of meaningful work to do, some purpose. Or maybe you just want to get up in the morning, go through your day, eat and avoid getting eaten, like early man. That is, maybe you just want to live, without any pressure to produce anything of value. But value exists everywhere, even alone. When you are alone you value different things than you do in society. In society I value my Cable. Alone I would value a swallow of water. I’m not sure where I’m going with this, but I do think that the older you get the easier it is to focus on the things that are really important.
Comment by Ed Bremson — On 11-19-05 at 3:58 pm