it’s like there’s this great subtlety everywhere always
it’s right in front of my face, inside me, everywhere
and sometimes i feel like i’m on the verge of grasping it
but i never fully do
but i know it is there

Isn’t it odd that events don’t really happen if there’s no official record of them, no paperwork? I know this concept might sound crazy to most people: "What do you mean they don’t really happen? Of course they do, I remember them, I was there!" But, no, they don’t. If there is no record, no solid proof, it did not happen. Other’s witnesses will disagree in what they think happened, and if all there is is testimony and it conflicts then no one knows what, if anything, really happened at any given time.

It’s the same principle upon which courts and organizations operate:
"I have a witness saying Mr. Dion killed this man!"
"Is there a body?"
"No"
"Is there a murder weapon?"
"No"
"Is there any evidence of any kind besides the witness?"
"Only circumstantial evidence"
"Then the accused shall walk free"

Example 2:
"Hi, I called you two weeks ago about an insurance claim and you still haven’t gotten back to me"
"Okay, and what is your name sir?
"Jim Davis"
"I”m sorry sir but we have no record of your claim in our system"
"But I did call in two weeks ago, I spoke to Mr. Duncan"
"Yes I’m sure you may have sir, but your claim is not in our system, there’s nothing we can do but start all over again"
And thus is life. There are no records of it, it didn’t happen.

It’s a weird concept to think about. It makes you wonder how much of our history we’re unaware of, and how much of it is fiction.

Roll down the window,
I need a breath of fresh shit.
Assume the worst,
and be amazed to disgust.
There is really no preparing yourself,
no day is without incident anymore.
Action is bad acting.
Everything’s a fuckin’ hassle.
Tomorrow you’ll care less.
How can this nonsense be a tragedy?
What’s to feel?
Fuck you
for even making me have to think today.

From scientific theory on mongrel idiocy to eugenic pedigree.
Mixing the race out of the test tube
In lab based baby creation.
True scientific excellence removes the prejudice
In the future breeding of good strong American stock.

What to do? Have you lost your way? When that happens we each have to take a good look at our hearts. There’s always something forgotten. Remember it… Whatever that is, must certainly be what you are looking for.

Look always to the internal flow of time which is far greater than the span of a human life.